im just another frog

well, i just came back from a yc session (yc=yamcha)..it is been such a long time since i have such an eye opening time..no pressure, no secret, just honest and non-bias talk with a guy...

after talking about future, career, life and love, i realized im a FROG in a well, yes FROG...and im just another frog that wonder whats out there but im a bit different. i dont want go out there because im scared of cows and goats..



yes im denial. yes i got no dream. yes i admit to everything..and i dont even know what i want, what i need and what i can do..to everything. life, career and love..work-wise, i dont like what im doing and yet there is nothing else i can do. i got no money and i got no contacts. all i have is a vision without a mission..

love?? even worse..im not looking and im not giving chance. my friend just shoot me with words like "denial" "lacks of confidences"..can i do better?? im not sure..can i try??i am but no improvements..even he got shock when he know i got histories..to which part he is shock, im not sure..at certain part of the talk, i just gave up.

because i know myself better than anyone.the problem is i dont know what i wan. even when he asked me, what im looking for? i cant answer.. i used to have a description of a man i want but not now.

not anymore...