no end...

i hated this the most
the feeling of being unable to do anything.
standing at a place that you cant do anything.
it is like being chased to the cliff..

it is getting complicated,
as complicated as the road in KL can be to me..
the arrows on the sign are showing to a million places
but i ended up getting lost..
with the arrows showing around, i know im not totally lost
thus i cant give up.
not MICHELLE YAP
but i wish the arrow will just disappeared.

no where to go anymore..
no road to take anymore..
completely lost.
so that i can just break down and cry..
wouldnt that be easier...


at this moment,
i wished im a mirror that can break into million pieces.
and unable to be put back together anymore..

at this moment,
i wished i was sucked into the blackhole
and never found my back.

the darkness just dont go away in my skies
everyone been saying the sun will come out after the rain goes.
the night will the way to the day
but how come my sky still remained dark..

sleeping beauty has it easily..
laid there sleeping til her prince charming found his way to her.
i wasnt wishing for a prince charming.
im just thinking could i sleep and never wake up
waking up to this reality life is hard.

im just asking for some simple things.
im not asking to have all the things in the world
all the diamonds, all the stones
im just asking for some stability and senses.
but God always has its way to make me lose it
and often i found myself standing at the edge again.

am i at fault?
for trying to be the best that I COULD...
but what i could doesnt mean what others want
others want a PERFECTIONIST
and the best i could is not that.
how can i go on when my confidence isnt even there..

when i can found my road??
a road that i can imagine myself doing it for a long long time..
and doing it happily...