next flight~

do you how does it feels to wanting to fly away,
yet there is tiny invisible thread tying you,
not allowing to take a flight???
i know they care about me,
wanting the best for me,
and
protecting me.

but all i asked is a lil support,
a lil space,
a lil time,
to do what i really like,
what i really want,
and to be me.

i know they think that is the best for me,
being a lawyer,
married someone significant,
and
having a good salary
maybe it is true
but for time being,
i wanted to make a mess
i want to at LEAST try
to do something that i like,
something that is me.

i have a dream,
i have something that i like,
and
i want to spend my life doing something i like.
i know doing what they want makes them happy
and it keeps me happy when they are happy
but i cant pretend that im all time happy
it is just like wearing a mask.

i just wanted to try for that interview,
it wasnt like i will get it anyway
and yet all this people just have to crush that lil dream.
and broke that lil heart.

it feels like
im walking on a path of fire alone,
with nobody on my side.