rain and lecture~

should i say yesterday morning since now already almost 1am??
anyway, i was rushing to pass up my moot court memorial at fourth floor..
running up the stairs, panting like hell..
finally passed up...
while walking back to library, it was raining...
all of the sudden, i feel like wanna stand in the rain..
just be static and let the rain fall on me...
let the world around me stop for 5 minutes..
let me just washed away everything in me..
let the rain washed it away..
too much burden, too much trouble...

but like i once said "i dont want to be your sun nor your moon, i just wanna be the rain...but will the rain make any difference or it will only make you sick??"
the rain tends to make people sick...
though im literally running to avoid the rain, but deep in me i really wanna stand there...
HL said if after running and panting and get wet from rain, you will get sickness or some kind of thing..
and so i ran,trying to escaped from the rain..

rain....
i love the smell of rain..especially when it hit the hot tar...
i love rain...it is been a long time since i played in rain..
when i say long time meaning it is REALLY REALLY long...
i missed the time when i can stand under it and just get wet from it..
feel some kind of relief..

recently i listen to HL+KL's lectures more than my lecturers in MMU..because i feel the lectures is really good and very applicable to me...but yesterday lecture was about how i agree with the lecture but i tend to ignore it or not used it..

the topics of day is ;
1. how i love to pretend to be strong
2. how i tend to ignore everything.
3. how to let thing on easy..

too many lectures til i forgot...haha...btw to all my dears, i love you guys and your lecture but like you all said im too stuborn to change that so just let me keep it for awhile more ok?until i decided to let it off..then initially i will...and also about the pretend to be strong, well that;s my dignity..so just let me keep some of my dignity...i dont have much left since i already show you guys all my ugly side..haha

xxx peace....love you all....